I Don’t Even Try to Explain
I just hold on tight.
I went to bed on Sunday night with my mind just reeling about how busy I am these days, not really in a bad way, but surely in a potentially overwhelming sense. I’d completely forgotten about youth bible study that evening — it didn’t even enter my mind when my parents suggested a movie and family dinner that I already had plans. Lying there that night, I was actually starting to get a bit sick to my stomach, sad as that sounds, just mentally trying to keep ahead of it all. I realized a few more upcoming instances where I had unknowingly double-booked myself, and all in all, I had a kind of drowning feeling.
The thing is, all the things pulling me in every direction are things I want to be doing. My full time job, time spent with friends and family, time with Josh, theatre shows, church, youth group, D&D, time spent drawing (three main projects now), five websites (three paid, two not), archery, guitar, frisbee, wings, MOO scenes, keeping my rooms tidy(ish)… the list just goes on and on. On one hand, the feeling of seemingly everyone wanting some of your time is a good one, but life is tiring these days.
And this isn’t meant to be a complaining thing… I need to either learn to organize my time better, or to learn to say no to doing some things. I’m pretty convinced that doing either one of these things will help me a lot.
André
Hey, first of all I think it’s amazing how much you get done and how you participate in so many facets of life. Your activities include business (Gemini, websites), social work (church, youth), sports (frisbee, archery), lots of arts (writing, drawing, guitar), relationships and housework in what seems to be a healthy balance.
The question is if things are just accumulating temporarily right now or if it’s a general problem of you cramming too much into your “free time”. If the latter is the case, I think you won’t be able to choose just one of the options you listed at the end. You should start with organizing better to be able to say no to [i]less[/i] things in the end to avoid too much stress and have some idle time.
ttyl!
Colette
Yeah, the scary thing is that I feel soooo busy right now, and yet even now I have tons of free time compared to how much I’ll have maybe 10 years from now when I have (hopefully) a house and kids etc. all eating up my time too. But I guess then I’ll have to put things like youth and archery on hiatus. Bah.